This last semester has been nothing what I expected, but it has been everything I needed. I’ve seen plans fall through, I’ve seen my heart break, and I’ve never been more stretched in my life. Through every struggle, frustration and question in my heart, I have realized the reality of waiting on God. I would be lying if I said it was easy; this has been the roughest season of my life. However, despite the days full of tears and doubt, I have learned that I am so much stronger than I think I am.
Through this emotional season, I have grown more in the last four months, than I have in years. I always believed that Christ was the source and identity of my life, but it was not until I faced rough situations that those beliefs were tested. By accepting each battle, Christ confirmed that my worth and value is found in Him, and in Him alone. There were many days I held tightly onto Jesus’s faithfulness because everything else appeared to have failed. There were also days that I felt all alone and Jesus became my best friend. There were days I felt like my heart was in a million pieces, but I knew in the Father’s hands, my heart was made whole. This season has been so rough, but I have never walked in more confidence and joy. I absolutely believe this season produced something within me that I will carry with me the rest of my life.
There were countless times I presented all my fears and questions to the Lord, and He lovingly whispered, “Wait on Me.” On the days I did not understand, I chose to wait on Him. On the days I was frustrated and impatient, I chose to wait on Him. On the days I felt like His promises were unfulfilled, I chose to wait on Him. Through constantly waiting on Him, He has taught me principles of the waiting process.
So what happens in the waiting? You learn to place your trust and hope in the Lord, not in your circumstances. In the waiting process, it produces peace and reliance on the Father because you don’t move until He directs it. I learned firsthand that waiting causes deeper intimacy with the Lord because it opens your ears to His whispers. You don’t have to prove anything in the waiting process because God is the One who is working on your behalf. Waiting produces patience, peace, and perspective, despite the temporal unfulfilled promise. Ultimately, the waiting process prepares you for the promise awaiting you.
Through all the waiting, my plans still did not happen as I expected. Although this is not how I pictured this season, I have learned that I do not always have to understand everything. Many times Jesus will lead us down paths that do make sense in our minds, but it causes us to trust in Him. I have learned that He does not want us to focus on our emotions, but instead, on His Spirit who is constantly leading us. All that matters is that you listen to His voice and obey, and Christ will take care of the rest.
He has given me so much grace to accept each situation and view it through the eyes of joy. I have constantly been reminded to, “Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let your endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” (James 1: 2-4)
So, when you find yourself in situations you never anticipated, bring your concerns before the Lord and wait for Him. When you aren’t seeing the promises of the Lord, trust in His faithfulness. When you feel like your hopes and dreams have fallen to the ground, lean on Him.
I am so thankful the Lord’s goodness and faithfulness is eternal. In fact, they chase after us each day. Psalms 23: 6 reminds His children, “Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” I encourage you to daily spend time with the King and let Him renew your perspective as He prepares you for future promises. He is a faithful Father and desires for you to receive the refining during the waiting process. Before you know it, you will look back over the last season and realize you aren’t even the same person anymore. He will redirect your thoughts and focus and develop you more into the child of God He designed you to be. By God’s grace you can embrace the waiting process and learn more of His character through each step of the journey.
I hope you were encouraged and thanks for reading!